Bailing Out

I'm angry at myself and the doppleganger effect was in full swing today. In an effort to gain more experience, I decided to go ahead and race with the team despite not being at full physical capacity. I barely made two laps around Park Drive and couldn't get off the saddle once! Here's an analogy. The pain in my shoulder felt like getting a cavity filled without novacaine. I just couldn't keep my arm extended. My coach is aware of my issue and was proud I made the effort to ride. In my book this is failure. My parents and my coach both think I'm being too hard on myself...I admit I can be...but this is unacceptable. I'm supposed to race next weekend too but I may be out of town. Sorry I needed to vent.